I'm getting divorced.  I'm being forced to move back home, 1200 miles away, with no job, little money, no dog, and no time to grieve.  He wants it done NOW.  I hurt so much.  I thought we were happy, or at least that he would be willing to work things out, to go to counseling, but he refuses.  I hope I will eventually will get better, but right now, I feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel.  All I can do is sit, watch TV and wait for the reality to kick in.

This happened on Sunday, was confirmed the next day, I come home to an empty house on Tuesday with the divorce papers sitting on the table, and he wants to file on Monday.  What the hell am I supposed to do?  Everything I know is here in Florida, except for a support system, and my support system is in Texas, the place that I was so eager to leave my whole life.

So confused right now.  I did not want this.

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First off, welcome to the new folks: silentwish_fic, soleta_nf, jackiesjunkie,  twistdmentality, and velvetjademuse.  It's nice to have you here!  Some of you are fellow NaNoWriMo-ers, some are Moonlight fans, and some are both.  How exciting!

Last week, a former coworker contacted Cindy,one of my supervisors, to see if she knew anyone who would be interested in helping out with a little project.  I don't know if any of you know about Flat Stanley, from the books by Jeff Brown.  Basically, it's this kid who gets squished flat, and they put him in an envelope and send him all over the world.  Yeah, sounds weird, but a lot of classrooms have been doing the Flat Stanley thing with their own flat versions of themselves.  So, I said yes, and got a Flat Ceon (my student's name) in the mail yesterday, all the way from Ohio!  I'm supposed to take him around the area and get pictures of him "experiencing new things".

Last night, Flat Ceon went to Biketoberfest in Sanford.  Bikers everywhere!

As always, Moonlight was fantastic, and apparently, remained steady in the ratings, even with Women's Murder Club taking over the #1 spot for the timeslot.  That's okay...next week will be better.  Way better.  Have you seen the previews for "Fever" yet?  Yow.  If you're a Mick/Beth kinda person, be sure to join up over at the Mick/Beth forum.  We have way too much fun over there. 

NaNo planning is coming along.  I have some basic sketches of the neighborhood it takes place in, as well as plenty of character outlines and plot notes.  I think it will be fine, as long as I commit to 2K a day.  That way, Thanksgiving and birthday plans won't be too traumatic.  How is everyone else coming along?  Are you planning your novel out or just waiting to see what happens on November 1st?

I'm still hooked.  The show didn't waver on its second outing, it only got stronger and more fun to watch.
It's not up on iTunes yet, but I'll keep checking. 

I got my paid account back.  This is so much nicer.

 Ah, October 1st always makes me happy and jittery.  It's time to sign up for National Novel Writing Month 2007, and maybe this year will be the year I can actually finish.  It's always something.  

2003: got to 43K but puttered out due to stress at work.
2004: moved halfway across the country and stuff, so no luck.
2005: I think I must have blacked out that year, because I can't remember what happened.
2006: got to 11K and had no time or personal space to write.

This year, things are different.  I have a long-term, cushy job (I'm still at the library and things are busy and hectic and great), Jason is doing fantastically at work (he just got a major promotion!) and we now have a roomy house with a spare bedroom that will function as my NaNo hideout.  This translates into less stress, more space, and generally a kinder, gentler noveling experience.  That's the theory, anyway.

My writing music has changed a lot since last year, too.  This might not mean much to anyone else, but to me, it's VERY IMPORTANT.  I tend to write parallel to the type of music I'm listening to.  Floaty, ethereal Loreena McKennitt playing in the background makes me want to write floaty, ethereal scenes.  This isn't a style of writing that I am comfortable with anymore.  I want more realism, though I tend to like the paranormal-tinged romance genre best, and it's anything but realistic.  But maybe you know what I mean.

Anyway, this year, my noveling music consists of Ray LaMontagne, Sinead Lohan, Damien Rice, KT Tunstall, Regina Spektor, Muse, and maybe a bit of Amy Winehouse.  How exciting is that?!  I'm a GIGANTIC NERD.

Okay, so, is anyone else competing?  Hellooooo? 

I accidentally forgot and then accidentally remembered to DVR Moonlight on Friday, which is another story for another time (a tragically funny one, involving a skating rink, five wicked children's librarians, and a bald tire).  I liked it.  I liked it a lot.  I may have a new fandom, if the show lasts, anyway.

( Thoughts w/ spoilers and promo video... )

- I nearly assaulted my mailman when he brought my copy from Amazon.  And it was obvious, by the look on the poor man's face, that I was not the first to do so.  I made him feel better, I hope, by telling him that he was probably making a lot of people really happy that day.  He was like, "Yeah,you're a nerd, laterz."

- I did not get my copy until 1pm on the 21st.  That's all fine and good, thanks amazon, but ALL MY FRIENDS GOT IT AT MIDNIGHT AT WALMART AND THEY WERE CALLING ME ALL DAY AND GIVING ME CRAP ABOUT NOT HAVING FINISHED IT YET.  Asshats.  :D

- I spilled coffee on the outside of my book.  That was later, toward the end of my reading marathon, but it warrants remembering, if only for the ungodly screech that came out of my mouth and prompted my husband to yell obscenities in my direction.  He had been asleep.

Since I'm nice, I'll just go ahead and put the rest behind a cut, just in case you a) haven't read the book yet, or b) don't give a crap.

Okay, so last time I was on here, it was 2006 and I was drunk. This is seriously not going to do. I left for a little while, thinking I'd try some other place to blog and fangirl and stuff, and it just didn't work out. NOBODY LIKES HARRY POTTER ON VOX OMG. Haha, kidding. Vox is great, but not really for me.

So I'm back. Break out the daiquiris!

I'm really missing you guys oh so moishe, and I really should start posting again. I shall, I shall...I'm a little tipsy right now. Enjoying the festivities, you know. Anyway, happy holidays to you all, whatever you celebrate.

Namaste,
Aubrey:)

I'm still here...I'm still alive! I got nudged (hiya, spiffychocolate), so I thought I'd send a "hello" your way.

Work = crazy success

I'm working on NaNo notes and plotline today. Yeeps!

You're right, I don't update anymore. And I leave comments, but not like I used to. I thought of going on a hiatus, but I can't do that.

What I can do is tell you that I'm trying to keep this LJ alive, but bear with me. I've got about a million tasks at work that are demanding a lot of my time, even when I'm at home. I don't even have the energy to turn on the computer. So that's the gist of it.

I really miss you all, and I hope you're doing well.

Happy 24th Birthday, im_tinuviel!

I miss you, and I'll call you tonight...hope your day off is grand:)

I wake up and find four episodes of The X-Files taped and ready to watch. DVR is a beautiful thing. We have it set to tape every episode of:

MythBusters
The X-Files
Grey's Anatomy
Lost
Masterpiece Theatre
Family Guy
American Dad
The War at Home
South Park
Drawn Together
Rocko's Modern Life
Aaah! Real Monsters
CatDog

Of course, it means that we can't actually save everything, since we only have 50 hours of space, but still. It's way too cool.

I realized that I haven't updated in over a week. There are a couple of reasons for this. I was sick LIEKWHOA last weekend. From Friday afternoon until Monday night, I was pretty much dead on my feet and didn't even think to turn on the computer. Then this weekend, we had a huge family cookout and I had no opportunity. I apologize. I'm really surprised that I didn't get unfriended by some of you:)

Bought a new printer/copier/scanner. Bought Grey's Anatomy: Season One. Watched the first two discs of Firefly. The second two are on hold at the library. You all were right. It's fantastic. Have slight crush on Wash. Aren't you proud of me?

It's President's Day, and the kids are out of school, so it's going to be a pleasant day.

I can now say that I'm addicted to coffee. I have to have at least two cups a day or I get a headache from hell. However, since I love coffee in all its forms (my current favorite being the I.C. Mocha from Panera Bread), this is not a problem and I can't honestly say why I'm bothering you with this information:)

I've started Sloppy Firsts, by Megan McCafferty. If you haven't heard, I've joined spiffychocolate's book discussions over at TwasBeauty. It's our first book, and I'm super excited. You should join. Seriously.

How awesome was Grey's Anatomy last night? I'm geared up to buy the first season DVDs on the 14th, but I think this season has been so much better.

I have a headache, and I smell like weird Chinese gelatin candy and glue sticks. This crap only happens to me, I swear:)

This epiphany brought to you by the letters F and U.

Seriously, I love my entire flist. You guys are the greatest.

I'm really not used to my new schedule...I work ten hours Tuesday and Wednesday now, not Wednesday and Thursday. But I forgot again today, and packed enough food for lunch and dinner. Then I forgot to take the leftovers home, and now it's gone bad and that's just wasteful (it was frozen taquitos, and we only have a fridge at work, blech). Anyway, at least it's Friday tomorrow and I only work until noon-thirty:)

My God, I have nothing to write about. I'll try my best to have an exciting day tomorrow so that I can come back and type a real entry.

I missed Grey's Anatomy last night. This pisses me off. Anyone care to catch me up on anything important?

I'm thinking about doing an icon overhaul today, since I really don't use about half of the ones I currently have uploaded.

asdfjkl; There's a release date on Amazon.com for Preston and Child's new book Book of the Dead. AAAAAIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! June 6th. I'll never make it:)

I've had four cups of coffee. Therefore, if you catch me on AIM and I start talking nonsense, you know why.