frick.

Fri, 19 Oct 2007 19:59:44 GMT

I'm getting divorced. I'm being forced to move back home, 1200 miles away, with no job, little money, no dog, and no time to grieve. He wants it done NOW. I hurt so much. I thought we were happy, or at least that he would be willing to work things out, to go to counseling, but he refuses. I hope I will eventually will get better, but right now, I feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. All I can do is sit, watch TV and wait for the reality to kick in.

This happened on Sunday, was confirmed the next day, I come home to an empty house on Tuesday with the divorce papers sitting on the table, and he wants to file on Monday. What the hell am I supposed to do? Everything I know is here in Florida, except for a support system, and my support system is in Texas, the place that I was so eager to leave my whole life.

So confused right now. I did not want this.

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Sun, 14 Oct 2007 13:10:38 GMT

First off, welcome to the new folks: silentwish_fic, soleta_nf, jackiesjunkie, twistdmentality, and velvetjademuse. It's nice to have you here! Some of you are fellow NaNoWriMo-ers, some are Moonlight fans, and some are both. How exciting!

Last week, a former coworker contacted Cindy,one of my supervisors, to see if she knew anyone who would be interested in helping out with a little project. I don't know if any of you know about Flat Stanley, from the books by Jeff Brown. Basically, it's this kid who gets squished flat, and they put him in an envelope and send him all over the world. Yeah, sounds weird, but a lot of classrooms have been doing the Flat Stanley thing with their own flat versions of themselves. So, I said yes, and got a Flat Ceon (my student's name) in the mail yesterday, all the way from Ohio! I'm supposed to take him around the area and get pictures of him "experiencing new things".

Last night, Flat Ceon went to Biketoberfest in Sanford. Bikers everywhere!

At the marina:

With some of the bikes:

Party time!

I think today we'll go out to Blue Springs.

As always, Moonlight was fantastic, and apparently, remained steady in the ratings, even with Women's Murder Club taking over the #1 spot for the timeslot. That's okay...next week will be better. Way better. Have you seen the previews for "Fever" yet? Yow. If you're a Mick/Beth kinda person, be sure to join up over at the Mick/Beth forum. We have way too much fun over there.

NaNo planning is coming along. I have some basic sketches of the neighborhood it takes place in, as well as plenty of character outlines and plot notes. I think it will be fine, as long as I commit to 2K a day. That way, Thanksgiving and birthday plans won't be too traumatic. How is everyone else coming along? Are you planning your novel out or just waiting to see what happens on November 1st?

"I thought I told you to stay in the car."

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 16:28:34 GMT

I'm still hooked. The show didn't waver on its second outing, it only got stronger and more fun to watch.

The best part, of course, was the last scene. This seems to be the pattern. The last scene will always make you clutch your chest and weep. Okay, that was just me, but I bet some of you did the same.

Lee Jay was far more sinister and believable than last week's villain, the LEWZER professor. That meant a higher amount of tension and all-around watchability (is that a word?) versus the premiere.

HAHAHA OMG Josef is pimp. Duran Duran? I love it. I could have done without the whole Mick-was-just-as-sleazy-as-Josef-once-upon-a-time scene, but then again, we see the change that taking Beth's kidnapping case brought upon Mick.

Josh is a dork. But since he's in with the D.A., I figure he'll be sticking around for a while, if only to help Mick and Beth with cases. I feel bad for him, he's not totally unlikeable, I guess, but um....he ain't no Mick. Sorry.

Two favorite lines? "I would never have known about the internet...World of WarCraft, etc." and "I thought I told you to stay in the car." I laughed so hard at both. CAN'T YOU SEE HIM PLAYING WoW? Hahaha!

Someone on the Mick/Beth forum talked about how realistic Beth's reaction to shooting Lee Jay was. I completely agree. Most shows have these kick-ass women with devil-may-care attitudes who wouldn't even have blinked while shooting the bad guy. And that's okay. We need bad-ass women on television. They don't have to all be that way, though. From the look on her face, you could tell that Beth was scared and horrified by what she had done. Very well acted, so props to Sophia Myles.

One thing that really bothers me about this show...and it's the only thing...Jesus, enough with the very badly-executed car scenes. Please, no more blue-screen, no more really bad leans when the car is "turning". It's making me cringe. Make it stop.

Some nice looks passed between Beth and Mick in this episode. I'm feeling more and more like I'd prefer watching this romance unfold slowly, because that eye contact thing is really nice.

Anyway, back to that last scene. Did you not want to hug him and make him all better? I loved how Alex played it: trembling, gasping, practically drooling, and it makes you realize that being a vampire isn't all that glamorous. It's a curse. Wow, but didn't he look handsome while all this was happening? I can't wait to see what happens next week. Hopefully they'll pick it up right where this episode left off. I'm already counting the minutes.

It's not up on iTunes yet, but I'll keep checking.

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 22:37:55 GMT

Officially, Moonlight is eating my brain. I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. I don't think I've been this excited about a show since The X-Files, and I was eleven when that show premiered.

I've said it a million times already, but GAWDDANG MICK IS HAWT. I even put it in my profile. Because it is true.

Is it Friday?! I can't watch it until I get home from a friend's football game tomorrow night (I promised him I'd go long before I'd ever heard of Moonlight, and I'd feel terrible if I backed out at the last minute, plus everyone from office is going and I never get to hang out with them these days). Thank heavens for DVR.

Here's a Mick/Beth forum for those interested/crazy enough to get involved in another fandom/curious:

http://mickandbeth.com/forum

Wed, 03 Oct 2007 03:09:58 GMT

I got my paid account back. This is so much nicer.

NaNo! NaNo! NaNo!

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 11:48:45 GMT

Ah, October 1st always makes me happy and jittery. It's time to sign up for National Novel Writing Month 2007, and maybe this year will be the year I can actually finish. It's always something.

2003: got to 43K but puttered out due to stress at work.
2004: moved halfway across the country and stuff, so no luck.
2005: I think I must have blacked out that year, because I can't remember what happened.
2006: got to 11K and had no time or personal space to write.

This year, things are different. I have a long-term, cushy job (I'm still at the library and things are busy and hectic and great), Jason is doing fantastically at work (he just got a major promotion!) and we now have a roomy house with a spare bedroom that will function as my NaNo hideout. This translates into less stress, more space, and generally a kinder, gentler noveling experience. That's the theory, anyway.

My writing music has changed a lot since last year, too. This might not mean much to anyone else, but to me, it's VERY IMPORTANT. I tend to write parallel to the type of music I'm listening to. Floaty, ethereal Loreena McKennitt playing in the background makes me want to write floaty, ethereal scenes. This isn't a style of writing that I am comfortable with anymore. I want more realism, though I tend to like the paranormal-tinged romance genre best, and it's anything but realistic. But maybe you know what I mean.

Anyway, this year, my noveling music consists of Ray LaMontagne, Sinead Lohan, Damien Rice, KT Tunstall, Regina Spektor, Muse, and maybe a bit of Amy Winehouse. How exciting is that?! I'm a GIGANTIC NERD.

Okay, so, is anyone else competing? Hellooooo?

New fandom, as if I needed one.

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 15:50:31 GMT

I accidentally forgot and then accidentally remembered to DVR Moonlight on Friday, which is another story for another time (a tragically funny one, involving a skating rink, five wicked children's librarians, and a bald tire). I liked it. I liked it a lot. I may have a new fandom, if the show lasts, anyway.

The storyline? Meh. Bland, but easy to watch. I felt no turmoil or suspense, the suspects were LAME-O (especially the professor) and the resolution was too quickly and easily fleshed out. That's okay, because, for me, it was all about the characters. Mainly Mick and Beth.

I enjoyed watching Alex O'Loughlin. He's hot and charismatic. And hot. His American accent was pretty decent, I think. I need to watch everything that's he's been in, because, well...he's hot.

Sophia Myles reminds me a bit of Kate Winslet. I've seen her in Art School Confidential and Underworld, and her face stays with you. I was figuring that Beth would be a little bit, I don't know, lustier, but that wouldn't have worked. I like the fact that she's an intelligent woman, not overly extraordinary in any way, just a nice person with investigative talents.

Josef creeped me out. The freshies? Vintage 1982? Ech. But I suppose we need a suave, seductive, slightly evil bloodsucker to remind us that this is indeed a vampire show. I just hate the lack of eye contact when he's talking to Mick.

Oh, Coraline, you're going to let us think that you're dead right up until Mick and Beth do the nasty, and then you just gonna pop up and ruin everything, aren't you? You bitch. I hate you already. But you are kinda badass.

But, oh, the best part is Mick/Beth. There's no way they aren't supposed to end up together. I would think that it might destroy any lovely tension, since it's so obvious, but GOSH they're both so pretty, and it just makes my toes curl with glee.

I really, REALLY hope the show makes it. The previews at the end got my heart pounding (see below), so if it gets canceled, please pray that they'll release all the episodes on DVD someday. *crosses fingers*

Oh, you know what...I think I might need an icon. Just one, to make me happy.

horribly, horribly late thoughts on deathly hallows

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 16:02:55 GMT

- I nearly assaulted my mailman when he brought my copy from Amazon. And it was obvious, by the look on the poor man's face, that I was not the first to do so. I made him feel better, I hope, by telling him that he was probably making a lot of people really happy that day. He was like, "Yeah,you're a nerd, laterz."

- I did not get my copy until 1pm on the 21st. That's all fine and good, thanks amazon, but ALL MY FRIENDS GOT IT AT MIDNIGHT AT WALMART AND THEY WERE CALLING ME ALL DAY AND GIVING ME CRAP ABOUT NOT HAVING FINISHED IT YET. Asshats. :D

- I spilled coffee on the outside of my book. That was later, toward the end of my reading marathon, but it warrants remembering, if only for the ungodly screech that came out of my mouth and prompted my husband to yell obscenities in my direction. He had been asleep.

Since I'm nice, I'll just go ahead and put the rest behind a cut, just in case you a) haven't read the book yet, or b) don't give a crap.

- I was surprised that she killed Hedwig. Not really heartbroken, though, and I usually get upset when animals are killed for no apparent reason. Eh.

- Dobby's death, surprisingly, affected me far more than I would have imagined. I think it was the fact that she really went into detail with the burial and Harry's insistence to not use any magic to dig his grave. I cried a little.

- Molly Weasley is awesome. I don't care what you say. Granted, the "NOT MY DAUGHTER, YOU BITCH" was a little OOC and corny. My best friend, during one of her calls, was all, "Okay, you're about fifty pages away from one of the craziest things I've ever heard a character say in these freaking books. Call me when you get there." So I get to that point and think, "This HAS GOT TO BE IT. This is crazy. Molly's crazy." but it's cool. buttfacemakani has the best rendering of the whole scene here.

- Poor Fred, Lupin, Tonks, Moody, and Snape. RIP.

- Lupin was a bit of an asshole, wasn't he?

- My head exploded during the whole "Ron gets mad and stomps away while Hermione begs him not to go" scene. It broke my heart. I loved Hermione's reaction when he came back in "The Silver Doe" and I think that it would have felt contrived if she'd immediately jumped into his arms. Hermione kicks ass.

- Epilogue=yawn. Sorry. I thought it sounded like fanfiction. And although I love me some fanfiction, it really didn't feel like I was really reading something written by JKR. Ah, well.

All in all, I though it was a wonderful book and a fitting end to the series. I'm sad it's over...it's been a great six years for me (I got into it a little late).

I'm also sad because I didn't go see OotP in the theater. This is the first one I've missed.

Goodness.

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 02:21:46 GMT

Okay, so last time I was on here, it was 2006 and I was drunk. This is seriously not going to do. I left for a little while, thinking I'd try some other place to blog and fangirl and stuff, and it just didn't work out. NOBODY LIKES HARRY POTTER ON VOX OMG. Haha, kidding. Vox is great, but not really for me.

So I'm back. Break out the daiquiris!

Oh, my god...happy holidays!

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 00:02:11 GMT

I'm really missing you guys oh so moishe, and I really should start posting again. I shall, I shall...I'm a little tipsy right now. Enjoying the festivities, you know. Anyway, happy holidays to you all, whatever you celebrate.

Namaste,
Aubrey:)

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 16:26:53 GMT

I'm still here...I'm still alive! I got nudged (hiya, spiffychocolate), so I thought I'd send a "hello" your way.

Work = crazy success

I'm working on NaNo notes and plotline today. Yeeps!

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 16:29:22 GMT

You're right, I don't update anymore. And I leave comments, but not like I used to. I thought of going on a hiatus, but I can't do that.

What I can do is tell you that I'm trying to keep this LJ alive, but bear with me. I've got about a million tasks at work that are demanding a lot of my time, even when I'm at home. I don't even have the energy to turn on the computer. So that's the gist of it.

I really miss you all, and I hope you're doing well.

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 14:42:49 GMT

Happy 24th Birthday, im_tinuviel!

I miss you, and I'll call you tonight...hope your day off is grand:)

It's amazing.

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 13:45:15 GMT

I wake up and find four episodes of The X-Files taped and ready to watch. DVR is a beautiful thing. We have it set to tape every episode of:

MythBusters
The X-Files
Grey's Anatomy
Lost
Masterpiece Theatre
Family Guy
American Dad
The War at Home
South Park
Drawn Together
Rocko's Modern Life
Aaah! Real Monsters
CatDog

Of course, it means that we can't actually save everything, since we only have 50 hours of space, but still. It's way too cool.

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 15:19:57 GMT

I realized that I haven't updated in over a week. There are a couple of reasons for this. I was sick LIEKWHOA last weekend. From Friday afternoon until Monday night, I was pretty much dead on my feet and didn't even think to turn on the computer. Then this weekend, we had a huge family cookout and I had no opportunity. I apologize. I'm really surprised that I didn't get unfriended by some of you:)

Bought a new printer/copier/scanner. Bought Grey's Anatomy: Season One. Watched the first two discs of Firefly. The second two are on hold at the library. You all were right. It's fantastic. Have slight crush on Wash. Aren't you proud of me?

It's President's Day, and the kids are out of school, so it's going to be a pleasant day.

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 22:47:52 GMT

I can now say that I'm addicted to coffee. I have to have at least two cups a day or I get a headache from hell. However, since I love coffee in all its forms (my current favorite being the I.C. Mocha from Panera Bread), this is not a problem and I can't honestly say why I'm bothering you with this information:)

I've started Sloppy Firsts, by Megan McCafferty. If you haven't heard, I've joined spiffychocolate's book discussions over at TwasBeauty. It's our first book, and I'm super excited. You should join. Seriously.

How awesome was Grey's Anatomy last night? I'm geared up to buy the first season DVDs on the 14th, but I think this season has been so much better.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 22:33:49 GMT

I have a headache, and I smell like weird Chinese gelatin candy and glue sticks. This crap only happens to me, I swear:)

This epiphany brought to you by the letters F and U.

Seriously, I love my entire flist. You guys are the greatest.

Hurrah!

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 14:15:41 GMT

HAPPY COMPLETELY 23rd BIRTHDAY, completely22! I ♥ you, and you're the coolest friend and sis-in-law there ever was:)

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 02:37:18 GMT

I'm really not used to my new schedule...I work ten hours Tuesday and Wednesday now, not Wednesday and Thursday. But I forgot again today, and packed enough food for lunch and dinner. Then I forgot to take the leftovers home, and now it's gone bad and that's just wasteful (it was frozen taquitos, and we only have a fridge at work, blech). Anyway, at least it's Friday tomorrow and I only work until noon-thirty:)

My God, I have nothing to write about. I'll try my best to have an exciting day tomorrow so that I can come back and type a real entry.

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 14:02:12 GMT

I missed Grey's Anatomy last night. This pisses me off. Anyone care to catch me up on anything important?

I'm thinking about doing an icon overhaul today, since I really don't use about half of the ones I currently have uploaded.

asdfjkl; There's a release date on Amazon.com for Preston and Child's new book Book of the Dead. AAAAAIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! June 6th. I'll never make it:)

I've had four cups of coffee. Therefore, if you catch me on AIM and I start talking nonsense, you know why.

do, MEME, fa, so, la, ti, do

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 11:40:18 GMT

I've seen this just about everywhere now. I've participated, and now it's my turn:)

You post a topic, list, category, whatever, in my comments section. (examples: "5 Sexiest Things About Voldemort" or "Top 5 things to drink"). Then, in a separate post, I'll post the answers to all your Top 5 ideas, according to me. Then you post this offer in your own journal.

You know you want to.

It's Friday, which means that I'll be home early. I'll do a post with the answers tomorrow, but I'll be lurking around later today on AIM (screename: purpleramen) and reading more Lupin/Tonks. It's eating my brain.

crazy-ass fanfic rec.

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 00:12:49 GMT

IZ DED IZ DED IZ DED.

Reading Lupin/Tonks. So gooooooood. OMG. OMFG. Blood on the Moon, by Portkey. Where the flock have I been lately?

I'm really sorry, but I needed to get that out of my system.

points at icon

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 13:35:02 GMT

Totally digging the floppy hair look that Tom Hanks has in The Da Vinci Code. I have to say that I still have a little tiny crush on him that hasn't quite gone away for twenty years:)

Work now, home @ 12:45, back online at some point. Ta.

throws confetti

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 14:46:39 GMT

Happy Birthday, blakesmom! I hope you have a wonderful day! Did you ever get the package I sent?

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 03:35:43 GMT

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

My resolutions:

1. Keep trying to lose that fifteen pounds. I'm really, really, having a hard time with it. People at work love to bring horribly tasty and fattening things to put on the break room table. I can't resist them! I'm afraid to step on the scale:)

2. Find God. In whatever form. I need some assurance that there's life/existence after this one.

3. Stop smoking. Duh.

4. Write. Anything. Seriously.

5. Be a kick-ass YA librarian.

Welcome, 2006.

We spent New Year's Eve playing poker and drinking the lovely pink champagne. Which I knocked over and was so embarrassed that I cried. That was even more embarrassing. We watched fireworks from the big hullabaloo party down the road, and I was able to find a constellation or two.

Hope you're all doing well. I wish I had more time to write!